i haven’t posted here on forever

so my friend’s boyfriend is in jail and she “misses” him and i’m like seriously so fed up with it because they’ve been on and off forever and he does more bad than good. sure they’ve known each other for a long time but come ON. when they weren’t together last she had to change her number because his now ex was harassing her via texts and calls. him going to jail should be a huge red flag but i guess not.

i really need to smoke or something. get some edibles. SOMETHING. brandon moved to santa cruz (l o l) so i can’t get shit from him. idk jared and i want to but we have no time or source. FUCK THIS. i don’t care how dumb this sounds. we pulled an all nighter last night and watched across the universe and at the lsd part we were just like “fuck why don’t we have weed” the one time i have the house to myself and there’s a pretty good chance that i wouldn’t get caught. so dumb.

college apps suck. the economy sucks. having no money sucks. what else can i complain about?

NO ONE FOLLOWS THIS SO IDK WHY I’M POSTING IT BUT YEAH WHATEVER

god fucking DAMMIT you’d think i’d be safe to post about a job on my own fucking blog but noooo you have to say you’re applying there now. the last thing i need is competition right now let alone someone i don’t like working there. this is why i don’t talk about this shit irl. fuck. you.

ugh today derek and i had a ~moment~ because he was making this catcher in the rye scrapbook thing for english and it was from phoebe’s point of view and i was like “i want to see!!” and he was like “no you’ll make fun of me” and i was like “ok pinky swear…no unbreakable vow” and we both did the unbreakable vow thing with our “wands” and it was so cute and why is he so cute and why am i so dumb

i want to have fun at bfd but one of my friends is totally against weed but everyone else wants to. idk i don’t want her to get pissed but we all agree she just needs to calm the fuck down. whatever i’m probably just gonna so it i don’t give a shit.

my photo didn’t get into the art show. idk i’m not trying to say that my photo was better than anyone else’s or say that it deserves too but the whole thing was a huuuge popularity contest. half the photos are shit quality wise to be honest.

i think pratt is my goal. i want to get away. far away. i don’t care how expensive it is, honestly. i can get student loans and apply for as many scholarships as i can. worry about dreams now, money later.

ugh can i just talk about saturday every time alex did that weird tongue thing when he sings ughghghhghsd

omg my heart was beating so fast. i’ve been paranoid all day and i was going up stairs and my dad was just like “where are you going?” and i was like “…..to change” and he was like “come here……..” all seriously and i was just like fuck fuck omg he knows and then he just gave me a hug

i honestly don’t see the hype of weed y’all. idk i just have to post this somewhere where not a lot of people can see it so it doesn’t look like “LOOK AT ME I GOT HIGH HAHAHA” if that makes sense.